My Journey as a teacher

Ok, this is just my little experiences that I want to share with u guys. Long long time ago, when I was in elementary school, I had a dream to be a teacher. But time after time when I grow up and sat in senior high school, my dream has changed. I want to be an accountant of government. So that I applied for STAN (sekolah tinggi akuntansi negara) to be a student there. I tried hard, studying for 3 month everyday. I’d passed the TPA test. But unfortunately, I failed the physic test. With my unconsciousness, I choose Undiksha with specialization in PGSD (pendidikan guru sekolah dasar) .

Firstly I felt so desperate, I thought I was the stupidest person in the world. I know I was weak. I didn’t have any goal before there. I just followed my heart to do everything. Yes, I tried to understand PGSD, but you know the real important is what is teacher. In my mind that’s so simple thing. Just tell, ask, and lead your student so everything will go on all right. But during I study there, I have a lot of lesson. Lecture tell me about how to know what kind of student whom you teach. It’s not so easy, teaching an elementary student is different than junior or senior high school student. We need to know how to teach concretely not abstractly. For attention, a teacher must be creative, innovative, smart, and friendly absolutely.

In my middle way, I’d a vacancy from my friend Indah to be a private teacher. I was afraid I cannot do it. I was curious with my ability and capacity. Even my father and grandpa is a teacher. But because I failed to get my scholarship, so I took that job. I teach Agi and my friend teach Ayi. I think they are so cute kid. They are smart like their parents. But

I will tell you about Agi. Agi is smart, perfectionist, and pretty kid. She has long straight hair, so good hair I’ve ever seen. But she is easily bored, sometimes she think everything is easy, she like to underestimate the lesson. I had to find a creative way to teach her, sometimes I worried she is smarter than me, if she knew I was . So before I taught her, I learnt the lesson. she was really interesting with my Japanese crossword. She liked it, everyday she ordered me to make it a lot. But six month later, I stop teaching Agi, and start teaching Ayi, her sister.

Ayi is pretty, funny, and kind. She is not arrogant. I felt so comfort with her. We could laugh together, study together, and I find a new method for teaching again. That was Snake Stairs (ular tangga). That was just a simple game, which Ayi must answer a question which was rolled in the bottle. She chose one paper, and then if she could answer it, she could throw the dice in other to know how many step she can walk. If she had 100 places, so it finished. I felt I have a new friend in Ayi’s self. I love her, and I will not forget the two sisters. Besides that, I had a new student named Damar.

I went to his house with Winda.  It’s about 7 km far from my boarding house. After I taught Ayi, I went to Damar’s house. Although tired, i liked it. But the problem was i felt afraid if I went there alone. The situation was so silent and there were a group man  in the gang way. His mother asked me to teach him in the morning. If he could weak up early, it would be no matter. But he broke all of my schedule. I’d left one  lecturer, I was so angry. So after I got my first salary, I  never came back to his house anymore. I didn’t mind about his personality, but he was too mess, indulged by his parents.

As long as I teach the sisters, I’d made an ads about private teacher for kindergarten and elementary school student. And not long afterwards I had a message, and I got a kindergarten student who would apply for an elementary school. I had to teach reading and writing. His name was Feyza. His mother was from Java and his father was from England. Wow, I’d never dreamed that I would teach child of foreigner. A little bit worried appearing when I  come to his house. Usually, he stayed with his baby sitter. I wanted be his friend first, that’s way i approach him. Then I gave him games from my computer. But he couldn’t develop his ability , because the method was too long. After taught him for 2 months, I resigned.

Feel a little bit disappointed with myself, after Agi n Ayi had a  semester exam, I  didn’t know may be his father lost his job, they stopped hire me. I was not lost courage about it . I  got a telephone from a parent, his child’s name is Hafizh. He wanted me to teach about reading, after I read, search, and download about what method could  take. I  could make him read well only for 1 month. He was in first grade of elementary school. As his parents knew I  teach for elementary student , they continued to hire me. Although had a different religion,  we respected each other. Hafizh liked playing playstation, sometimes I interrupted his game, fortunately his parents always looked after him. One day I went to his house, there was a  house reparation. I could not  meet with his parent. His father transfered me salary from atm, but I  had to remind him twice. I didn’t like that way, so i didn’t go to his house next week after.

I had a sms from Mr. Dani, his boy was Rayhan. They are chinese. His parents were tourist guide.  For two days, i taught in his boarding  house, Rayhan was known a naughty boy. When I saw him firstly he was just shy boy, may be he wanted to take his parents attention. He was not stupid, just didn’t have a teacher in his house. After few days, we didn’t  study at his house, but his grandmother’s house. His grandma was friendly but had an angry temper. Sometimes I cut the time of teaching, it makes his father not satisfied. But i promise I  would not do it anymore. Rayhan had a neighbour called dea. His parents wanted me to teach her, she was naughty, never had concentration. I just wasted my time teach her, I had  lost 200.000 rupiahs from her. It didn’t matter for me.

Indah gave me a student again. Her name was Angel. She is rich. She had a big house with many cars. She said that she had a vacation in Korea, Japan, and many other countries. I like her, she reminded me about Agi. She is an attractive girl, I always had to be so patient to teach her. She never stop moving, sometimes she climbed the fence up, ran everywhere, and could not put her total attention to the lesson. Finally,I had been angry to her. I told her that I would not help her to do her homework anymore. Then, she agreed to listen me. Time after time, her development was appeared. Her rank rise up, I was proud of her. Yeah actually she was not stupid. If she liked something, she would be smart. Unconsciously, I had taught her for 2 years. Because now I live far from her house, besides that, I had broken my schedule.

I almost forget that I had taught a girl named Dama. She was in grade 5. She is disciplined, smart, diligent, and easily understand. I really wanted to give her a different lesson from their school task. But, her homework was so many. I felt that her parents only hired me because of her homework. I could not advance my lesson to her. That house was far too and I dicided to not teach her anymore.

I had two new students, their names were  Farrel and Felis. Farrel was smart, but a little bit careless. Meanwhile his sister was lazy and had a little bit attention in studying. I had no idea with Felis. I tried to flatter her, made a game, became her friends, shouted to her, but everything was useless. She almost stay in her grade. I thought she needed her parents attention. Then I gave up to her. I stopped teaching them too.

I found a new student at my school her name is Devi. I had felt disappointed with her, not because she didn’t enjoy. But I didn’t find where was the mistake. I tried find and understand. She couldn’t write rightly. I thought I had been teaching a first grade student. She was in grade 4, her lesson was complex. How could I taught her from the beginning. Oh my god, I almost gave to her. But because of her spirit in studying, I tried to understand her. I taught her hardly. She was used to listen my shout, my anger, but she was really tough. From zero to …may be not hero buat in the middle way. She showed her development. From slowly to fast in writing or calculation. Even tough it was about addition, subtraction, multiplication, and division. We were so patient, finally she began to understand the lesson. But I really knew she didn’t like math and Balinese language. She likes science, English language, and religion.  I like her so much, not because she is smart. Like an empty glass, she is ready to accepted everything. She always ask me about everything, now I feel I have a new friend to talk.

Besides Devi, I have several students too. They were Axello and Ian. They only wanted me to teach math. They didn’t know about basic math. Their material in grade 5 was not to easy. Besides knowing basic math, they had to know about the question. I was a little bit hard for teaching them. May be Axello was afraid of me because I was fierce. Then he stopped. Ian had a same problem, but he never afraid of me, he understand that I did it for him. He got my lesson, but I didn’t know why her mother didn’t confirm me. She must knew that his son have to teach slowly.

Immediately, a phone called me. Her child was in grade 6. She wanted me to focus on exam test. Although she was far, but I wanted to get the challenge. She was smart, but a little bit lazy. Her name was Gung Krisna. She was going to be a teenager. And I thought I couldn’t teach like usual. I meant I needed to be her friend. I only gave her a question, but she didn’t want to read. She wanted me to do it for her. Ok I could accept it,her task was too many too. Then fortunately, she could get her favorite junior high school.

I didn't remember what time exactly I had teach Dewa Rama. But i just knew that , he had many difficulties in every subject. He was in grade 4, and I only took twice a week. He was slow, unconcerned, and naughty. Actually I thought if he would to be concerned, he wolud be able to finish it. But may be because of family condition, he wanted to get attention from his mother and grandmother. I only taught him for a semester.

In my school I had a friend called Bu Wayan. Although she was old, but she was active in sport. I liked her technical in teaching. She never got mad while teaching at all. She beg to me for teaching her grandsons. I accepted that because I want to help them too.Besides that, she also gave me a free lunch at her house before teaching them.  Putu and Made had a different character. Putu was smart, honest, and interested in Science. But Made was a little bit lazy, attractive, and interesting in Art. Time after time because Made not in grade 4 anymore, I lonly taught Putu until he was in grade 6.

A parent called me, his girl was Wulan. She studied at international school. It’s not my first experience to teach a kind of student. We speak both English and Indonesian. We liked each other and I had an idea to give her a present for each 5 stars or A +. She was so smart, mature although she was only in grade 1. Sometimes she had a bad mood in studying. Her daily activity was busy. I felt pity of her. I understand and I waited till she was ready to study. Great, her rank was raised up. I made an appointment to her, if she could raised A+ in each my test, so that I would give her a present. Actually it's not really tired for me for preparing that thing. 

axello had a friend called Ian. he had a difficult things in math. i taught him only once a week. But he was really not understood with math from the beginning. Addition, subtraction, multiplication, and division. It was a terrible time because he was in grade 5. Sometime he made me really upset. Although I spoke loudly he still didn't give up. With my patientness I tried to teach him. But I didn't understand with Axeelo from three times a week, he cut our meeting became once a week. At least it made his value down. In the end of semester, I decided to stop him.

I had a new student again. His name was Dwi. he lived in Penatih, It was far enough from my boarding house and I was pretty sure that their parents only hired me for examination test. After that our relationship was over.

Approaching to my daily activities, Monday, Wednesday, and Friday became so busy day. Because I had to teach my class student at my place. The salary was so enough for me to not take my private teaching. But I liked it, I didn't want to stop it. I got new student again because his mother buy my stuff. I forgot to tell you that I tried in online bussiness too. His name was Vino, he was smart but only didn't have teacher or someone to teach him at home. He only need a math lesson. And I thought that I had give my best, but when I asked his mother about when would the meeting was token, she didn't answer me. It made me decide to stop Vino.

On October 2018, there was a test for government civil servant. It took a huge number for teacher and health workers. I studied every day, even when I teach at school, my class, my boarding house and my student's house. I bought a book to be answered. I also searched and printed some test from Internet. Usually I studied at 5 am and before I went to sleep, and I never forgot to pray too.

 There were 4 Steps. the fisrt step was registration. I was not only registry my self but also my friends. I had to make a note about their information and I didn't want any mistake. After that step was clear, the second was re-registration and we could log in to our account. I thought we also always be careful in every step. Because when we had submitted our field, we will can't be back. We had to choose our workplace too. In a while, It would be so confusing for everyone.  I asked for my father suggestion. He told me to choose in Sukawati, about what elementary school it was it depended on me. And finally I choose SD N 4 Sukawati. I choose it because It was the nearest place with my hometown and Denpasar. In November the third steps was held, it was CAT test. It was my first experience but luckily I could practice it from BKN Kanreg X Denpasar free trial CAT test and my exercises on internet. I really made sure for the time. We need a good time management to choose and to finish it. On Novermber the test was held and I was a little bit disappointed with the result. I could pass TWK and TIU, but TKP trapped me. I thought I had answered the right but I knew that other opinions were different. 

I tried to be calm down, but I didn't want to see my book again. But surprisingly, because there were so many people failed the test, the government changed their regulation. Everyone who pass score 250 or more I forgot exactly how many it was, could continue to field ability test On December. I needed to make my rival's value smaller than me. And big THANKS tothe God his value was smaller but I hope that he  had not certification letter. While waiting the announcement, I planned to marry in the end of 2018. After that another surprise came to me, I was pregnant, I didn't think it will get soon like this. Because I was really busy in preparing my marriage and the test. 

In January, I had a new surprise again that I pass the government civil servant test. All just liked my dream, my dream come true after a long waiting. One thing that made me sad was I have to resign at my school because I will get a new school. My students were sad and crying. They gave me a separation party and present. I wanted to cry too but I could not show it in front of them. I only could give them advise to be a good student.

I decided to stop my class course, Wulan, Ian and Vino. Honestly I didn't want to stop Wulan, but I couldn't go home late at night again. I want my baby still save. So that I only teach Devi because she was in grade 6 and need to be taught for dinal ecam. I started to search a morning course. I found a new students their names are Adi and Aldi. Do you know where I have to teach them? I do it at market because their parents are seller. It is my first experience. The place is not bad, because the condition is calm, not noisy. Adi is fast, and easily to remember and counting. Meanwhile, Aldi is slow, but have an interesting in food material. I don't have any difficulties on Adi. But I have to force Aldi, his writing is not good enough and he always forget my lesson.

While waiting for my job, I became a good housewife. My routine is only cooking, washing, cleaning house, watching TV, playing game, and sometimes teaching my private course students. The important things too is I have to manage my finance household. Besides my husband salary is not so many and I don't get any salary . Yeah I always wait for that moment when I can start my task as a teacher of government civil servant. I hope I can teach Devi until she has passed her final examination because may be I will move to Gianyar. I will stop Adi and Aldi too, altough I still want to teach them. OK i think it is enough for now, and i will continue my story after I teach at my new elementary school. SEE YOU .....^_^